Homeschooling

Not sure why Mother’s Day always ends up so awful for me and at some point i end up crying and feeling sorry for myself.
Today was no exception. No card from DH. In fact the concept of mother;s Day seemed to incite anger in my husband.
The older kids were very sweet and could tell I was upset which made it worse. i really don;t care about gift or card or whatever- I was more upset that my kids really get into holidays an surprises and they were robbed a bit of that little pleasure.
At some point not so D-H could have gotten it together and gone to dollar store or hauled out the markers and paper to make a card with them- or written a poem or SOMETHING.
I hope I don;t sound like I am whining.. I knew It would be bad this year but not sure I cold have set the bar any lower than I did expectation wise. The feeling that it was an affront to have Mother’s Day was the worst. Like I should feel guilty for being a mother at all and existing. Argh, can’t write about it any more- way to upset. Wish I could get over it.